wow.
it's been a reallyreallyreally long time, huh?
since october of last year nothing much has changed, honestly.

i graduated, and so far have accomplished nothing. annoyances consisting of: no job, not being able to go to college right away because of financial issues, and my lack of female companionship. typical lame teenage just-out-of-highschool angst. i've seen it in movies, but never really thought about how life after high school will be.

it blows.

my folks have been giving me a hard time ever since THE DAY AFTER my graduation. no relaxation time really. the first couple days were probably some of the most stressfull i've ever delt with. i mean, i just made this big accomplishment and THE DAY FUCKING AFTER i'm already catching shit about something else. i knew if it weren't grades, something else would arise soon enough. i was right of course. and it's not like i'm not looking, or don't want a job; that's not the case. i do want a job & i am looking, but the fact that they're riding me about it and making me a little pessimistic about it is starting to become a perpetual bummer.
also: i'm sevenfuckingteen, almost eighteen, and they still have this lame ass curfew of 10:00 or 11:00pm. all of my friends barely have a curfew to speak of. the earliest that i know of is 1:00am. what the fuck, right? i mean they don't give me any freedom. i've never had a cellphone. yet they expect me to notify them immediatly if my plans change in the slightest. you know, over the past four years or so, this shit's become unbarable. which leads me to my only solution: getting the fuck out. a solution i cannot accomplish untill i have a job. not to mention (& this is all of my fault) my lack of a driver's liscence or even a learners (i've failed the test twice) and the biggest component; a car.

so i suppose my folks are right more or lesss in the pushiness of me getting a job. i guess it's the fact that they present it to me in a mannor that makes it look like i'm not trying to get one or that makes it seem like i don't know that i need one or something; that really pisses me off. it is imparative for me to aquire employment for the sole reason of freedom. not the money so much as being able to fucking leave and be out at a reasonable time for a kid my age.

buuuuuut anyway;
today should be cool.
me and a friend are going to be drawing comics all day.
maybe something will show up on here.
but probably not.


dueces,
-JPS